30 – Just Live It

Yo! I’ve been spinning on this planet for 30 years now.

Is that a long time, or is time relative? I’ll let you think about that for a moment…It’s old, isn’t it?! Be honest with me πŸ™‡β€β™€οΈ

Alright, enough already….I’ve regained composure. Welcome back! Funny thing about me, I’m beginning to realize that not everyone can handle being around such a free-spirit like myself. This is because everyone has these imaginary boundaries they set for themselves. For some reason, most likely because of my upbringing, I am unaware whenever I am crossing someone else’s boundaries or making things uncomfortable for them. Either that, or I just don’t care as much πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ Judgement is another one of those things for me, as I just don’t care enough to judge someone for who they are or the circumstances they find themselves in. Now if you’ve met me IRL, you’re probably thinking to yourself like, “What is she even talking about? She’s not even a little awkward.” Pause for a cause –you may not be experiencing the real wild thing.

Allow me to explain:

I can never tell if someone wants to really get to know me or if they really want to get to know what sleeping with me is like. Real talk. Of course, it doesn’t help that I’m naturally a flirt, but my first world problem is that I crave genuine connections and want to get to know people inside and out –like on some deeper level ish; and I can’t. Terribly shy as a child, I grew up holding in a lot and biting my tongue. Now, I lack the words to say in most interactions because I want to avoid offending anyone with my inappropriate, blatantly honest and blunt demeanor. At least, I’m struggling with this. I might actually enjoy pushing the limits a little and making people feel disturbed sometimes; I think it’s funny, and it’s a fun way to live life.

On that note, how’s life loves? Can we just go up to people and ask them how they’re doing mentally or emotionally already? Check in with each other regularly? When does that point come into play in our existence? I mean, that’s the game, right? Evolution is the survival of the fittest, and here we are at this very point in time. How we doing? Surviving? You good πŸ‘πŸ½ I’m amazed you even lasted this long. I’m just messing with you… 😬 By the way, thank you for being here! It really wouldn’t be the same without you, just know that.

As I was saying, boundaries; everyone has them. My hope is for more people to stretch their boundaries. Push their fears forward and do the things that scare them most. I guess my question is, how can we know what our boundaries are if we don’t truly know ourselves?

Bingo! That is for you to figure out. Don’t forget to love yourself. Maybe even hug yourself? Try it, I’ll wait.

..Did you do it? 😹 Good. I’m glad. Now that we’re being honest with each other. I’m going to keep it real with you. I don’t hug myself. But who knows, maybe you might like it? I jokingly refer to myself as a try-sexual,” a self-coined phrase meaning I’ll try anything once, as long as it’s something I absolutely have zero desire to be addicted to. If I like it, I much try it again just to make sure. Nothing too hardcore, but sky-diving is something I’ve tried. Definitely don’t want to be addicted to it like those gnarly instructors attached to your back are doing jump after jump each day for a living. Frog legs from the fair and escargot 🐌 on a cruise ship, yes, I’ve tried those before. I’ll pass. I know you’re already thinking about it, but in regards to kinky bedroom stuff (i.e. choking and being tied up) save it, don’t even waste my time. I’m not down. By practicing this mindset, I open myself up to a world of adventures in my own safe environment known as my boundaries.

So just trust me on this one thing, be friends first! It is said that in relationships, lust will eventually die, love will sway, and sexual attraction will come and go. Having the ability to love someone as a friend will keep you together even through the tough times. Now, I want you to consider some of the boundaries you’ve set for yourself. Why were they put in place? Which ones are you dead set on, and which ones are you a little more open-minded about and flexible with? Whatever they might be, live your life my loves!

Just do it.

#staywild #followwildthing #greeneyedblackgirl #wildones🐾

Today I am grateful for:

β€’ More faith in myself and in the process

β€’ The rain to help things grow

β€’ Electric cars

AM Meditation:

What do you blame yourself for?

I have to say, I really blame myself for not putting in a ton of effort to keep in touch with my family members, especially during the holidays. I’m the youngest in my immediate family, and I feel like I should be able to look towards my elders for guidance in these family matters. It’s like when one member of the family passes, the bond isn’t as tight-knit or traditional as they used to be, but that isn’t even the case with my family. We just don’t ever plan get togethers at all, and I am considering changing that this year.

What would make today great?

If I could put more energy towards looking into owning property.

DAILY CHALLENGE

Accept the fact that all I need to be is myself to receive the blessings that I desire.

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I got the chance to interact with an individual I truly look up to and admire.

2. I danced in the rain.

3. I’m learning how to better walk away from people and things that do not share my same interests.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to spend more time creating beats and looking into podcast equipment.

PM Meditation:

I am great.

I am confident.

I can do anything.

I can accomplish anything.

I have a purpose.

I am capable.

I do.

I am ambitious.

I am intelligent.

I am powerful.

Evening affirmations
Evening Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

Taking in a moment of gratitude and appreciation for all the hardships I’ve endured in my life to get me where I am today.

Follow me for updates on my journey towards self love. Catch ya later!

~Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl πŸ’š

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