When You Can’t Find the Sunshine, Be the Sunshine

Bonsoir 🌛

Mes amours…C’est August. Loves, August! Give it up for yourselves, you’ve made it around the sun through yet another Leo season 🦁 I’m so glad you’re here. How we doing? Yo, the other day my homie straight up asked me how my finances were?

This is a true story:

For the first time in my life, I got really serious about my current financial situation. Instead of getting defensive for them asking such a rude statement or complaining about the things I cannot control, I simply came clean and told him I wasn’t where I wanted to be as far as long-term and short-term savings but I was working on it. I had a plan. I didn’t go into detail on how I manifested $12K recently, but hopefully he’s reading about it now.

No lie, $12,000 into my bank account. Yes. You’re wondering why I’m not completely freaking out about this kind of money? That’s because I recite these words aloud to myself every morning when I get up and every night before I go to bed:

That’s right, I asked for it, and how do you suppose you will receive things if you don’t ask for them? Now, you can’t just sit there expecting this type of stuff, you have to have a little faith too. You could put in the work, and be consistent with positive affirmations while expressing gratitude daily. Though, what you think in your mind and speak into the universe may or may not come to fruition how you’d like it to. I believed I had some good karma coming my way and I’ve been meditating on this financial situation since last year. With time and patience comes happiness and reward. Trust me on this.

So check this out:

Bad luck happens all the time, whether it be that parking ticket that turned out to be $170, that $300 you owe your mom just because she’s your mom, or that time you forgot to pay your car registration the month it was due and ended up being $400 more than you wanted to spend. It’s all about how you choose to react to what’s happening to you. That is your character and your philosophy of life. Last year I chose the unhealthy choice to live my best life acting like I could ball out of control, taking trips, treating myself and my friends, and not once having the desire to ask for gas money. My self love meter was low so my debt increased as a result, and I ended up maxing out my credit card. This is coming from a person who luckily never had to deal with student loans or debit besides a car note thanks to her granddaddy who is a retired Air Force veteran. You’d think I would have learned my lesson by now, but nope, bad choices paired with bad habits turned into a recipe for stress.

Most days I would attempt to survive off a couple of Beyond Avocado tacos from Del Taco just so I could have enough gas to make it to work and back. When you’re living paycheck to paycheck, you shouldn’t have to put your health in jeopardy. Remember to save even a small amount, and always pay yourself first. For me, it didn’t even matter if I had only $5 or $50 to my name. I chose to face the day with positivity and a smile, knowing and reminding myself that better days were ahead. I would even hit up a close friend for money and made sure to pay them back once pay day rolled around after I had just depleted my entire year’s worth of cash savings for my rent. Thank goodness for my community and the genuine love shared between each of us. Vibes don’t lie. It’s a beautiful thing.

So there is this this called interest rate. Mine went all the way up to 25%, meaning for all my outrageous purchases from last year, I was being taxed on all the fun I had. Make sure you know how your money works ladies and gentlemen, that way you can make your money work for you. Ladies especially, do not wait until someone does everything for you. Figure it out or send me your questions. I gotchu on this! If all else fails, google it.

Fast forward to recently when I hadn’t even been able to make payments to my credit card bill due to my car note, insurance, and other living expenses. I knew something had to give, so I returned to nature and joined in on a local meet up and group meditation at what’s known as “Vibe Tribe” hosted by my good friends of Function Presents. https://instagram.com/function.presents?igshid=1h77bijj85dqg

Here, we enjoyed a guided meditation and sound bath on the beach, engaged in breathing exercises and set our intentions a-flame, releasing our written words into the universe together while sharing our space and energy with one another. This is where I made my wish. My wish was to let go of the fear of talking to grandfather about my financial issues by the following week. I gave myself a deadline, this is important.

That week, I talked to my mom. I called my grandfather. He talked to my mom. More back and forth with my grandfather via text. I told my him I was coming to visit. The next weekend, I visited my grandparents and busted a solo mission out to Las Vegas, NV with just enough money and gas for a one-way trip including a home cooked meal from their meal delivery, along with a smile and little hope for a miracle.

…I obviously made it back home to Cali with a full tank of gas because my grandparents love me and I love them! Also showing genuine concern and appreciation go a long way, never forget that. But nonetheless, I was granted my miracle of being able to pay my credit card bill. Now, I’m going grocery shopping, meal prepping, eating healthy, feeling blessed and way less stressed. If I can do it, you can too. So, guess what? We can manifest our realities. Think about that for a second.

Alright, that’s enough. Come back to this present moment. Think about something you desire? What does your current debt situation look like? How do you plan on recovering?

You could try something like this starting today:

Don’t forget to pay yourself first…Do it. Go on, reread it again if you need to. Screenshot it. Save it if you need. Keep it safe.

Make a wish…

Just do this one thing for me please. Make a wish. Say it out loud, “I wish,” and speak it into the universe. She’s always listening.

Okay, so what did you wish for? Was it for love or happiness? Health or good fortune? Don’t tell me! Whatever you wish for, I hope that you get it. Matter of fact, I know that you will. You deserve it! As for me, my wish is to stay focused on my creativity and planning for the future while maintaining a healthy and loving relationship with myself. How do I plan on achieving such a daunting task, you ask? With love, of course!

Also, this:

I already know my future is bright, it’s written in the stars. Choose healthy and positive life choices by waking up each day with a fresh new mind ready to learn and an open heart ready to give and receive love. Now get out there! Go live your life and make your dreams come true. You‘re worth it! Have fun.

#staywild #followwildthing #wildones🐾

Today I am grateful for:

• More free time to myself for developing healthy habits in safe space

• Plant-based protein

• Not needing air conditioner on a hot day when you’re outside enjoying the cool breeze next to the beach

AM Stretches

AM Affirmations

AM Meditation:

What attaches you to this world?

For me, what attaches me to this world are the instant connections made with others. I feel like we’re all lost souls floating around in space, so desperate for someone to show us a sign of love or a gesture of compassion. My goal is to transform my ego of the immature childish mind to the mature holistic and spiritually focused ego of the true mature adult, focused on moral virtue as opposed to childish self-centeredness.

What would make today great?

If I could put more energy towards releasing my ego attachment and not lose sight of who I really am. I aim to constantly remind myself that we are spiritual beings having a human experience.


Focus energy towards repeating small acts to fulfill my dream of becoming more in tune with the universe and my spirituality.

Day 25: REST

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I got the chance to dance along to some amazing music.

2. I was able to let my body soak up the sunlight absorbing that good vitamin d.

3. I got to enjoy a couple hours plotting out a business plan with a close friend.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to spend more time visiting local restaurants to be able to provide reviews for different menu items or offerings.

PM Meditation:

I am guided by my inner wisdom.

I am at peace, whole and balanced.

I honor my body as the temple that nourishes my soul.

I am connected with my higher self and the Divine Spirit for positive energy.

PM Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

Not being afraid to put myself first. Keep consistent with my healthy rituals and routines that I’ve set for the next day and next week and the next month and so on.

That’s all for now. Keep reading, it’s good for you. Follow my journey for more of the good stuff!

💚 Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl

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