When You Can’t Find the Sunshine, Be the Sunshine

Bonsoir 🌛

Mes amours…C’est August. Loves, August! Give it up for yourselves, you’ve made it around the sun through yet another Leo season 🦁 I’m so glad you’re here. How we doing? Yo, the other day my homie straight up asked me how my finances were?

This is a true story:

For the first time in my life, I got really serious about my current financial situation. Instead of getting defensive for them asking such a rude statement or complaining about the things I cannot control, I simply came clean and told him I wasn’t where I wanted to be as far as long-term and short-term savings but I was working on it. I had a plan. I didn’t go into detail on how I manifested $12K recently, but hopefully he’s reading about it now.

No lie, $12,000 into my bank account. Yes. You’re wondering why I’m not completely freaking out about this kind of money? That’s because I recite these words aloud to myself every morning when I get up and every night before I go to bed:

That’s right, I asked for it, and how do you suppose you will receive things if you don’t ask for them? Now, you can’t just sit there expecting this type of stuff, you have to have a little faith too. You could put in the work, and be consistent with positive affirmations while expressing gratitude daily. Though, what you think in your mind and speak into the universe may or may not come to fruition how you’d like it to. I believed I had some good karma coming my way and I’ve been meditating on this financial situation since last year. With time and patience comes happiness and reward. Trust me on this.

So check this out:

Bad luck happens all the time, whether it be that parking ticket that turned out to be $170, that $300 you owe your mom just because she’s your mom, or that time you forgot to pay your car registration the month it was due and ended up being $400 more than you wanted to spend. It’s all about how you choose to react to what’s happening to you. That is your character and your philosophy of life. Last year I chose the unhealthy choice to live my best life acting like I could ball out of control, taking trips, treating myself and my friends, and not once having the desire to ask for gas money. My self love meter was low so my debt increased as a result, and I ended up maxing out my credit card. This is coming from a person who luckily never had to deal with student loans or debit besides a car note thanks to her granddaddy who is a retired Air Force veteran. You’d think I would have learned my lesson by now, but nope, bad choices paired with bad habits turned into a recipe for stress.

Most days I would attempt to survive off a couple of Beyond Avocado tacos from Del Taco just so I could have enough gas to make it to work and back. When you’re living paycheck to paycheck, you shouldn’t have to put your health in jeopardy. Remember to save even a small amount, and always pay yourself first. For me, it didn’t even matter if I had only $5 or $50 to my name. I chose to face the day with positivity and a smile, knowing and reminding myself that better days were ahead. I would even hit up a close friend for money and made sure to pay them back once pay day rolled around after I had just depleted my entire year’s worth of cash savings for my rent. Thank goodness for my community and the genuine love shared between each of us. Vibes don’t lie. It’s a beautiful thing.

So there is this this called interest rate. Mine went all the way up to 25%, meaning for all my outrageous purchases from last year, I was being taxed on all the fun I had. Make sure you know how your money works ladies and gentlemen, that way you can make your money work for you. Ladies especially, do not wait until someone does everything for you. Figure it out or send me your questions. I gotchu on this! If all else fails, google it.

Fast forward to recently when I hadn’t even been able to make payments to my credit card bill due to my car note, insurance, and other living expenses. I knew something had to give, so I returned to nature and joined in on a local meet up and group meditation at what’s known as “Vibe Tribe” hosted by my good friends of Function Presents. https://instagram.com/function.presents?igshid=1h77bijj85dqg

Here, we enjoyed a guided meditation and sound bath on the beach, engaged in breathing exercises and set our intentions a-flame, releasing our written words into the universe together while sharing our space and energy with one another. This is where I made my wish. My wish was to let go of the fear of talking to grandfather about my financial issues by the following week. I gave myself a deadline, this is important.

That week, I talked to my mom. I called my grandfather. He talked to my mom. More back and forth with my grandfather via text. I told my him I was coming to visit. The next weekend, I visited my grandparents and busted a solo mission out to Las Vegas, NV with just enough money and gas for a one-way trip including a home cooked meal from their meal delivery, along with a smile and little hope for a miracle.

…I obviously made it back home to Cali with a full tank of gas because my grandparents love me and I love them! Also showing genuine concern and appreciation go a long way, never forget that. But nonetheless, I was granted my miracle of being able to pay my credit card bill. Now, I’m going grocery shopping, meal prepping, eating healthy, feeling blessed and way less stressed. If I can do it, you can too. So, guess what? We can manifest our realities. Think about that for a second.

Alright, that’s enough. Come back to this present moment. Think about something you desire? What does your current debt situation look like? How do you plan on recovering?

You could try something like this starting today:

Don’t forget to pay yourself first…Do it. Go on, reread it again if you need to. Screenshot it. Save it if you need. Keep it safe.

Make a wish…

Just do this one thing for me please. Make a wish. Say it out loud, “I wish,” and speak it into the universe. She’s always listening.

Okay, so what did you wish for? Was it for love or happiness? Health or good fortune? Don’t tell me! Whatever you wish for, I hope that you get it. Matter of fact, I know that you will. You deserve it! As for me, my wish is to stay focused on my creativity and planning for the future while maintaining a healthy and loving relationship with myself. How do I plan on achieving such a daunting task, you ask? With love, of course!

Also, this:

I already know my future is bright, it’s written in the stars. Choose healthy and positive life choices by waking up each day with a fresh new mind ready to learn and an open heart ready to give and receive love. Now get out there! Go live your life and make your dreams come true. You‘re worth it! Have fun.

#staywild #followwildthing #wildones🐾

Today I am grateful for:

• More free time to myself for developing healthy habits in safe space

• Plant-based protein

• Not needing air conditioner on a hot day when you’re outside enjoying the cool breeze next to the beach

AM Stretches

AM Affirmations

AM Meditation:

What attaches you to this world?

For me, what attaches me to this world are the instant connections made with others. I feel like we’re all lost souls floating around in space, so desperate for someone to show us a sign of love or a gesture of compassion. My goal is to transform my ego of the immature childish mind to the mature holistic and spiritually focused ego of the true mature adult, focused on moral virtue as opposed to childish self-centeredness.

What would make today great?

If I could put more energy towards releasing my ego attachment and not lose sight of who I really am. I aim to constantly remind myself that we are spiritual beings having a human experience.


Focus energy towards repeating small acts to fulfill my dream of becoming more in tune with the universe and my spirituality.

Day 25: REST

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I got the chance to dance along to some amazing music.

2. I was able to let my body soak up the sunlight absorbing that good vitamin d.

3. I got to enjoy a couple hours plotting out a business plan with a close friend.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to spend more time visiting local restaurants to be able to provide reviews for different menu items or offerings.

PM Meditation:

I am guided by my inner wisdom.

I am at peace, whole and balanced.

I honor my body as the temple that nourishes my soul.

I am connected with my higher self and the Divine Spirit for positive energy.

PM Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

Not being afraid to put myself first. Keep consistent with my healthy rituals and routines that I’ve set for the next day and next week and the next month and so on.

That’s all for now. Keep reading, it’s good for you. Follow my journey for more of the good stuff!

💚 Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl

Stay Golden

Welcome! You made it ☺️ I’m so glad because there is something really important I need to tell you…

I love you!

Really, I mean that.

What’s good my peeps? How are we doing today? What feelings are swirling inside you? Do we have summertime sadness or summertime gladness? Are we shining from the inside out? If not, stay calm, there are better days ahead.

It is amazing what we can accomplish if we do not care who gets the credit. ~ Harry S. Truman

So tell me why I’m chilling on my toilet laughing to myself?

Because, I had reached a point in my day when procrastination was kicking in heavy. Luckily, I snapped out of it and I thought to myself as I relieved myself upon my porcelain throne. Every wasted golden opportunity goes down the drain and is forgotten like the weekly trash that gets picked up in front of my house. I’m talking about that would’ve, could’ve, should’ve, almost seized, tiny, insignificant idea you gathered in that gorgeous mind of yours and so carelessly gave up on because you didn’t believe in yourself enough. You know what I’m talking about, and we do it constantly.

What if we went out on a limb and put a little faith into our hopes and dreams? Where would we be if we simply tried? I think of these things sometimes as I often come up with creativite sparks throughout my day. I also use the restroom pretty frequently as I attempt to stay hydrated, and I can’t help but to wonder each and every time I flush the toilet, there goes another golden egg flushed like Veruca Salt. Time to complain about what I don’t have until another fresh idea pops up. I really need to put those thoughts into actions. Don’t even get me started on golden showers… it amazes me the things we come up with that are both are justifiable and inevitable.

This belief coined by John O’Sullivan in the 19th century was the idea that Americans were destined, by God, to govern the North American continent. Our entire world has changed because of thinking like this, which leads me to wonder where we would be had this concept not gone over well with the people living at that time?

There is always this question stuck in mind about how to bring people together, bridge communities and awaken my loved ones to all the beauty that is all around us? Is it even worth it to attempt such a thing, should I just let people be and go on about my business, do I even know what I’m doing? I’m finding that instead of sitting around and thinking about it, I could make better use of my time by simply leading by example. Life is merely an occasion, so rise to it.

This is where self love comes into play! Instead of focusing on ways to make people better around you, stick to knowing yourself. Know and use your strengths, be honest with yourself, feel your feelings and speak kindly to yourself. Most importantly, surround yourself with people who treat you with kindness and respect.

If these are things you currently practice, try a different approach:

• Say “no” when you need to

• Allow yourself down time

• Be truly present

• Give yourself a treat

• Let yourself off the hook for mistakes and imperfections

• Work on forgiving yourself for bigger stuff

• Accept the fact that some people won’t like you

• Make fun a priority

• Practice gratitude

• Write down your successes

• Take good care of your body

• Pursue a hobby

• Stand up for yourself

• Write yourself a love letter

• Ask for help when you need it

All you have to do is pick one of these things to try and I guarantee you’ll be feeling happily imperfect in no time. If I can do it, then you can do it too. Of course, not everything comes easily, so with a little patience and effort, self love will become second nature to you. Just don’t give up! Soon you’ll see people around you treating you with the same love and respect that you give to yourself.

Keep shining my loves, stay golden!

~ Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl

#staywild #wildones🐾 #followwildthing

Today I am grateful for:

• More honesty with myself to speak my truths to those I trust

• House music

• The cool breeze under a the shade of a tree on a hot summer day

Morning Stretches

Morning Affirmations

I am positive.

I am happy.

I am successful.

I will achieve big things today.

I will make friends with everyone I meet today.

I will be cheerful and optimistic.

I have faith in myself.

I am rich in the possessions of health, happiness and all the free gifts in life.

I enjoy life and live it more fully.

I am aware of the beauty within me.

I am confident and courageous.

I am very intellectual.

I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.

I am a good person.

AM Meditation:

What is separate and different to me?

Being a cool kid versus being and organizer. I rather engage in struggle from current reality up, than look at struggle from theoretical utopia down. With love we can all do better.

What would make today great?

If I could come up with a business plan to remove the financial debt from my life.


Release all illusions and embrace what is true and real.

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I got some inspiration for my newest business venture.

2. I was able to meditate with a new candle and crystals my good friend gifted me.

3. I connected someone through similar music interests.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to continue reading up on making friends and influencing people.

PM Meditation:

I am passionate, powerful, and productive.

I am guided by my inner wisdom.

I am connected with my highest truth.

I am at all times safe, loved, guided and protected.

Evening Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

Disconnecting from social media for 24 hours.

✌🏽💚 S t a y • W i l d

Listen to Yourself

Loves! Welcome back 🤗

The present moment is filled with joy and happiness. If you are attentive, you will see it. Stay wild–

So glad you made it! How are we feeling on this glorious day? We getting better or acting bitter? I’ve been feeling pretty inspired lately, but curious to know what you’re going through? Has it been June gloom or June bloom this month? Comment below June 🌫or June 💐


Do you feel free?

…That was a test. And you passed. Feel free to continue reading.

Freedom has become my main goal. Self-sustainable living at its finest. How do I plan on getting this, you ask? Self-expression!!! Checking in is one of the most important gifts we can give to ourselves. How we look on the outside has everything to do with how we’re feeling on the inside. We’re loving ourselves, right? So, my question to you is why not show it? By knowing our limits, honoring our needs and desires, as well as taking the necessary time to heal and to repair our bodies, we’re able to give ourselves more spark to radiate our internal light ✨

Home Girl Tips on Transforming Your Identity

• Daily Affirmations:

I have time to do things I love.

I love my body.

I am beautiful, funny and intelligent.

I am grateful for my loved ones.

I am so loved.

• Build Good Relationships:

Most people think they have no choice but to accept toxic relationships in their life. Remember that no one in the universe is more deserving of love than you. Give yourself permission to cut negative people from your life, and surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you.

• Develop Competence:

The only thing that matters today is making things happen. Can you get this done? Are you able to solve difficult problems in a timely manner? Most people don’t really want to be happy, or they don’t think they have the resources to be; They want to complain and make excuses because it’s hard to be happy. It requires improving a little each day which takes commitment, integrity, and accountability. Still, I suggest changing your attitude to see the good in things. Trust me on this one. Make it happen.

• Be As “Free” As Possible:

You can choose not to give power to any person, or any goal, or any object, or any situation. Don’t dwell on the past, or the future, or anyone’s opinions or anything else. Just choose to be happy with yourself right now. That’s real freedom.


Speak it into existence

Easier said than done, I know, but it’s totally worth it. Just try. Practice makes perfect, however perfection isn’t what we should be striving for. I believe if we can prove that we showed up and did the best of our abilities every single day, we can at least say we have consistency. Through experimenting and adversity comes growth and achievement, so why not just enjoy each moment as they come? That’s my goal at least, freedom to the pursuit of happiness and art. Why?

1. Because I believe in myself.

2. I have clear career goals. They’re definitely goals at the moment, but I’m dedicated to making them a reality.

Now is the time my loves. There has never been a better time to inspire creativity, love and abundance into our lives.

Choose to live life happy, healthy, and whole. Also, bloom! 🌻

Be here now 💚

#staywild #followwildthing #wildones🐾

Today I am grateful for:

New spaces for adventure, activities, and random events

• The Happy Cow app

• People who show passion in the workplace

Morning Stretches

AM Meditation:

What do you deny?

I deny the belief that I’m not disciplined enough to be a millionaire within the next 5 years. Yes, I’m familiar with all the sayings about money not buying happiness. I would prefer to live comfortably and to be able to save a million, while earning a million, in which I could then donate a million. I have common sense and all the necessary resources. Simply put, I choose to not take the time and make the effort. I’m a work in progress, I can’t deny that.

What would make today great?

If I could release my fears and decide once and for all to not engage in gossip.


Remembering that I am the only person who decides my attitude.

Day 21:

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I was able to express myself freely through art.

2. I got the chance to connect with some inspiring individuals, helping me to see the bigger picture and reassess my life on a deeper level.

3. I challenged myself to not take anything personally at work and it appears to be going well. I feel like I’m doing a pretty good, as difficult as it may be to achieve in an office full of men.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to learn a new alkaline vegan recipe to enjoy over the weekend.

PM Meditation:

  • I express my thoughts and feelings freely.
  • I own my power and feel fully alive.
  • I am calm, confident and well spoken.
  • I communicate effectively with everyone in my life.

Evening Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

If I could, I would like to work on outlining my new business format and strategize an plan for acquiring investors.

You guys, I’m so proud of you for making it this far.

Catch up with me for more love wild ones!

💚 Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl


Yo! Look what I just googled:

Mayday. Mayday! Help me…it’s May.

You made it, welcome back! What up fam? Hope all is well with you. As for myself, I really just had a moment thinking about all of those precious lives lost to suicide and the stigma associated with getting the help that we need to thrive in our society. May, of course is mental health awareness month, and as much as it saddens me to think about, it also really makes me appreciate my beautiful mind and how I’ve learned to deal with depression and anxiety. I stay blessed and am very fortunate to not live in places like Alaska or Seattle with gloomy weather for a good portion of the year. Sunshine and warmth are my sanctuary ☀️ I just feel confident by keeping positive and believing things will work out accordingly. They always do, so why stress? All you need is a little faith in yourself and some self love. Believe me, it’s not as easy as it sounds, but it’s totally worth it.

So I gotta ask, how are we doing? It’s okay if you’re not okay. I repeat, it is perfectly alright for you to not be alright. Sit with your feelings. Meditate on them. Even the most uncomfortable ones have lessons to teach you. Just remember not to dwell too long and to move past them. Energy flows better that way. Took me some time, but I have come to understand that life is about the journey, and not the destination. If you don’t appreciate where you’re at now, how do you expect to get to where you want to be?

Knowing all of this, try practicing gratitude as it will attract more positives into your life. Consider the law of attraction.

If you can imagine it in your mind, you CAN experience it in your reality.

Remember to also be patient with yourself my loves. Greatness doesn’t come overnight. Even if you feel fear, have the courage to step forward and embrace it by using daily positive rituals to keep you focused on you.

What are you waiting for? Start today. Start right now! Get motivated to live the life you want to live. If it’s easier said than done, then seek help. Whether it be family, friends, or even a therapist or healer, there are so many resources at your fingertips ready to get you feeling like you again. All you have to do is believe you are worthy; and you are. Even if you don’t believe me, I know it’s true.

So there!

If you need some tricks to grow from triggers, I got you.

When you have unhealed wounds and you feel the need to pop off, try this instead:

  • Feel it. Take a deep breath & pause 🌬
  • Observe (don’t react) even though this will feel highly uncomfortable 🧐
  • Re-program the subconscious. Affirm: “I am grateful for this emotion and what it can teach me 😌
  • Watch as you form a new relationship with emotions as a form of feedback 👀
  • Release. Move forward 👣

Remember always to love yourself. You’re beautiful. I hope qui aide (that helps)

#staywild #followwildthing #wildones🐾

Today I am grateful for:

More time to learn about volunteering for counseling and therapy

• The “Help” function in Microsoft Excel

• Moments of solitude to clear my thoughts

Morning Reminders

AM Meditation:

What saddens you?

For me, the thought of dying alone or leaving this world without knowing a true love or being able to pass on my legacy would be pretty tragic.

What would make today great?

If I could discover different mediums of African art.


Release all the sadness and loss, to let the pain flow away

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I finally finished a project at work I had been working on for over a month.

2. I was able to take some time to organize and clean my room from moving recently.

3. I’m learning the importance and the impact of racism on the sexual reproductive health of women of color.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to spend more time creating a treatment for the latest film idea I have.

PM Meditation:

  • I love and accept myself just as I am.
  • I deserve love, health, happiness and prosperity.
  • I give and receive love effortlessly & unconditionally.
  • I feel stronger, more alive and energized each day.

Evening Affirmations

Evening Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

If I could, I would like to attend my local farmers market to pick up some produce and create a plant-based meal prep for the week.

Follow me for more of that good good ! Until next time loves.

💚 Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl

Turn a ➖ into a ➕


What’s good my loves? Hope you’re enjoying a positively marvelous day.

Yo! I’ve been finding myself telling white people lately that “you can,” and it’s making me stop to think, like really? Y’all ancestors pretty much colonized the entire world and forced beliefs on whole cultures but you really be limiting yourself to what you think you can and cannot do? Allow me to explain:

One night I went out dancing in LA. I have no problem going places by myself as I enjoy my own company, but people usually end up approaching and talking to me anyway. On this particular night, I found myself on the dance floor grooving along to the tunes the DJ was spinning at a Whiskey Bar. I noticed an older black man leading his white female date towards my direction and I saw her see me then start slow down. I overheard her say to her date, “Oh no, I can’t…” I honestly didn’t even hear the rest of what she said. Could have been, “Oh no, I can’t be seen dancing next to her,” or whatever, it doesn’t matter. She was probably thinking, I’m too old, too uncoordinated, too uncool to be here. So, without missing a beat, I grab her hands and pulled her out to the middle of the dance floor to dance with me saying, “Yes you can.” She stared at me, mouth agape and completely stunned. She embarrassingly repeated to her date, “Do you think she heard me? Did she hear what I said?” Susan, I didn’t have to hear you, but you need to hear yourself. Yes you can!

Another scenario I love is when white ladies ask me about my hair. “How did you get your hair like that?” My response, “I bought it that way.” Then all of the sudden they act as if they’re not as amazed because it’s fake hair. “Well I could never do that,” they reply. “Yes, you can,” I say confidently. Sure, you might look ridiculous and I’m in no position to tell you this Becky, but guess what, you can still look just like me if you really tried. I understand people wanting what they can’t have, but even when I tell them they can do their hair like mine, they’re convinced they could never pull it off. Funny, when we wear protective hairstyles to avoid the European beauty trends that have become so popular, people are still so curious and want the same thing for themselves. These things will never make sense to me, but then again, I grew up in Orange County. Makes me think that I have a very skewed grasp of reality.

So what do I do about it? Should I change who I am, dwell about my upbringing, or do I change my environment? Be the catalyst instead of the inhibitor. Whether you think so or not, you’re right. You can! We can! I say let’s invest in ourselves to bridge our communities for the greater good. We all face these similar struggles, but if your first instinct is to doubt your capabilities, then how are you really going to grow out of your comfort zone? Allow me to ask again. How are you planning on growing out of your comfort zone if your first instinct is to doubt your capabilities? And here we are.

I have this thing about sleep.

I like, love it.

I love sleep so much.

I like dream about it at night.

Especially in the day time. By the water front Zzzzs all day club. Don’t forget tea time.

Reminds me of those precious loving moments of clarity we get to experience so sparingly. I’m talking bout that me time. Queen Bee in her prime. Like right now. Me time.

But you see, I can’t sleep on this. After all, we’re limitless beings and we should act as such by continuing to love ourselves. If there’s any good from the passing of Nipsey Hussle, it’s that it opened up the eyes to a lot of people who were unaware of the positive impact that this beautiful soul left. His energy remains and the marathon continues.

Turn a negative into a positive 💙

#staywild #followwildthing #greeneyedblackgirl #wildones🐾

Today I am grateful for:

More faith in the process of learning to love myself

• Angelique Smith & Ermias Joseph Asghedom

• Friends who make the effort to put me on to certain things they think I might enjoy

Morning Affirmations

AM Meditation:

What do you blame yourself for?

I have to say, I really blame myself for not allowing myself the space and the freedom to mourn in peace. We all grieve differently, but sometimes you just need a good healthy cry. I owe that to myself every once in a while.

What would make today great?

If I could put more energy towards investing in my future and read on building a financial foundation.


Free my mind and reprogram it to be limitless.

Afternoon Workouts

Afternoon Stretches

What amazing things happened today?

1. I got the chance to experience the feeling of a sore body from physical activity again after taking a break from my Zumba fitness routine.

2. I got complimented on my hair by a random customer and he made me smile by reminding me to stay hydrated.

3. I’m learning tips and techniques to release negative thoughts and not react from triggers.

How could I have made today even better?

If I could, I would have liked to spend more time creating memories outdoors with friends and pick up some gardening skills.

PM Meditation:

I am enough and what I do is enough.

I love myself. I value myself. I trust myself.

I am a powerful, radiant, magnificent being of light.

I permit myself to fully enjoy everything I do.

Evening affirmations

Evening Stretches

BONUS: What do I plan on accomplishing tomorrow?

Taking in a moment of gratitude and appreciation for all the willpower I have accumulated in my life thus far.

Follow me for updates on my journey towards self love. Catch ya later!

~Your Friendly Neighborhood Home Girl 💚